Confidence. Once upon a time, I had none.
High school theatre helped. It gave me the courage to explore, to try on different personas until I found a combination that fit right. College for me was more about the people and the experience than the academics. Funny, since I went so deeply in debt for it.
But much as I loved theatre in high school, I didn’t pursue it after. I knew the limits of my talent: I was dedicated, but mediocre. I wasn’t confident enough in myself to get out of my own head.
I auditioned for a couple shows in college and was cut each time. I would stare at the theatre class descriptions in the course catalog, but only signed up for one in my senior year.
Only a few years ago did I start auditioning for community theatre productions. And I was cut. A lot.
I managed to get a part as Cecily in a staged reading of the Importance of Being Ernest. Not many auditioned. That was in 2011.
Then last summer, I got an ensemble role in Julius Caesar. A few months later, I ended up in what might be the most challenging role I will ever play as the governess in Turn of the Screw: a two-person show with a scant month to learn all my lines. For 90 minutes, I never left the stage. It was dark, and intense, and wonderful. I still can’t quite believe I did it.
After that? I auditioned for another show. And got cut. (There’s a metaphor for writer rejection somewhere in here.) I was ecstatic to make the ensemble for Dracula.
Then about a month into rehearsals and a month before opening night, I got a call from the director. One of the actresses had to drop out for personal reasons, and would I be willing to play Mina?
I have been buzzing. This cast is amazing and awesomely talented, and I can’t quite believe that I have this opportunity.
Even if opening night is only two and a half weeks away.
And that is why I haven’t posted lately.
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Congratulations! The key here is perseverance. You could have tucked your tail between your legs after each rejection, but you didn’t. It’s that determination and perseverance that have got you to this point. THIS is the difference between the “haves and have nots”. YOU GO GIRL!!! Your dad is smiling down on you. ❤